God Doesn’t Want Me to Go?

  • Pain

This week has been pretty frustrating. Cayden and I were sick most of the week (still feeling it a bit honestly). And we were worried that we wouldn’t be able to go to a Christian youth conference in Gatlinburg because of it.

Then, on Wednesday night, disaster struck when something unexpected and beyond stressful happened. The plans to go to Gatlinburg looked even more unlikely then.

Well, the kids left to go to Winterfest last night, and my plan was to wait until today, hopefully get good news, and then follow them up there, but then it started to snow on the mountain! So even if we get good news, I’m still not sure if I can go. (I’m writing this from the doctor’s office now)

In my frustration, I told a good friend, “It’s almost like I wasn’t supposed to go!”

She replied, “Nah, I don’t believe that.”

And I didn’t either, honestly.

Now, as I reflect on the last week, I see how even it was good, maybe even wonderful.

I got to spend some one on one time with Cayden. I got to see mine and Laura’s best friends in action as they dropped everything to help us when we needed it most (something they did before we were even friends too by the way). And I got to plan a fun weekend for my kids.

Even though I don’t get to enjoy it quite yet, I know they are in capable hands and having a great time.

So, all in all, it was a good week. On the surface, it sucked. For sure.

But in between the lines I see love, compassion, family, fun, and friends.

I don’t believe that God woke up one day and said, “Ah yes. Let’s keep Daniel from going to Winterfest. Sounds like a good way to spend my week!”

Sometimes, stuff just happens. There is no explanation for it. But do you know what God does do? God shows up in friends and family who are at your door in less than thirty minutes ready to help in any way.

God is with your friends who let you disrupt their work day because you need someone to talk to.

God is with your friends who give you reassurance that staying behind is okay.

God is with you when you cry out in frustration, even if the object of your frustration is God!

Thank you to everyone for checking on us, praying for us, and being amazing friends. Hopefully this post helps you when everything seems to be going wrong.

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