In the mornings when you first get to work, you inevitably trade those usual questions and answers.
Co-worker: “How are you this morning?”
You: “Doing well. And you?”
Co-worker: “Same old, same old.”
And do you know that feeling when someone breaks the mold and actually tells you how they’re doing. It’s like a shock to your system. You didn’t actually care, right? You’re just showing that you are somewhat civl before 9:00 AM, and what you really want to do is get through the pleasantries so you can nurse your coffee and plan out your day.
But I’m actually interested.
How are you, reader?
What can I do to pray for you?
How is your prayer life?
How is your relationship with God right now?
If you are in the process of rethinking your faith, then how is your family or church taking it?
Let me know. I may not be able to respond to every single message, but I’ll read them and pray for each of them.
Because I’ll tell you how I’m doing.
I cycle through the Dunning-Krueger effect on a weekly basis. One day I’ll be at the top of the mountain of stupidity, and the next day I’ll be coasting down the valley of despair straight into the depths of imposter syndrome.
Somedays I feel like a rockstar. My sermons are on point, my articles resonate with people, and I have no problem sitting for hours studying, reading the Bible, and knocking out homework. But other days I don’t feel like doing much of anything.
Do you know what I mean?
I have a lot to say, but my brain feels so slow. It’s like I’m operating on half a tank.
And I know that part of the reason I feel this way is because the weather has kept me out of the woods this week, which is where I get a lot of praying and meditation done. But it’s still a bummer, you know?
I also realize that part of the reason I feel down about this, or perhaps guilt is a better word, is thanks to the work ethic instilled within me from twenty different directions. This has actually been a fairly productive week: I wrote an upcoming sermon, outlined the first two or three classes of Leviticus I’ll be teaching next month, and did a few other things here and there for school and church work.
And yet it feels like there’s something missing.
The something missing may be a 3 page paper on leadership that is due, but Tomorrow Daniel can take care of that!
Tomorrow Daniel and I don’t have the best relationship. He usually gets mad at Past Daniel, but they play nicely most of the time.
Enough about me. How are you? Anything I can pray for?